To ZOE

just randomly coming back here...never expect tat i would put down a few words after closing it up for so long....

reading back the articlesss....still got feel...start to appreciate more about my life, my experience...

因缘。。。

people come people go

it's so quiet suddenly....

looking back those pics...their activities in msia...
suddenly feel so worried...dunno what ll it be???
always hoping to go back
when time's coming, i start to get worried..
things that i used to do in msia, i cant continue anymore...i m too old for that, it is time to grow up...it is time to make some changes...
friends? i dun really have many back home....but we were quite close one time...
have been away for a few years...
looking at their changes...
friends that i used to hang around....ll be different...they have grown up...
everything ll be different...
starting to get used to here but i cant say so...people come people go...

how good would it be...if i never experienced any changes...
when u have only one goal, u ll go for it...with ur best...
when there are a lot of choices,u ll think it is worth to do so n so? ll u regret if this n that...

i really wish there aren't any big changes in my life....

心淡,心碎

有时真的觉得很心酸...

你把他们放在心上...在首先...
可是对他们而言...却不是这一回事...
有时真想到回以前,不与任何人熟悉,至少不会觉得失望,心寒...
你越在乎的,却是越伤你越深...

我越来越不能走出这种感觉....

因缘

if not cos of it...i wont have so much time...involving in those activities...having a bunch of brosss...

if not cos i was in SIT...there wont be a queen pig...piggies would have less a member...

(for so many pics we have, i still like this the best)

if not cos i m in adelaide....

if not cos of it...i wont get closer to them....


i wont get to know them....



i wont know so many good n nice uncles n anties...n shifus....

n some other new friendssss.....

it's lost or found? i have no idea...
it is all about fate

my feeling's starting to get complicated....
where's my fate would be? next yr?....

因为如此而有了这样的缘分

说无情既有情
说讨厌却又不舍

在准备考试的这一段日子里,
很多过去在我脑海里飞过...
在我第一年到这到现在
我在乎的人,失我的人...
有点懒得去想去理会了...

越来越想快点回家...

有点饱和了....快点考啦....

又再次崩溃了...并不是为了什么...只觉得很累很累....
时间越逼近,想回家的心情越强烈.
真想此刻回到的是自己的家,而不是冷清清没人的屋子

不知是为什么...
我越来越不想跟人打交道...
做什么都提不起劲,没兴趣,只觉得很无聊...
闷闷不乐...

我好像在周围建了道防护墙
不想让人步进也不想走出去

basically, i dun feel like socializing, not emo, just being lazy...
i used to like to make myself happier, better everyday but now...
i jus feel that everything can end soon..
i want to say bye bye to everything here, everyone as well....
i need a new start....
now only i know that i dun actually like here that much, start to hate it actually....

真的很没意义...

在Adelaide三年了...做过什么,为什么,忙什么,奋斗什么...只有三个字没意义
这可说是我人生中最没意思的三年...
又没干过什么特别有意义的事,又没特别的高兴,又没真的学习到什么(有,只感觉到负能量)...
简直是不三不四,浪费时间...

真想快点结束2010年

Sunday...at the temple again...
was quite surprise when i first saw some decoration in the 'library', then i recalled that today was 'elderly day'. they have it every 3 mths. jus to celebration birthday for elderly whose bday fall in those 3 mths...

as usual, i hided myself in the kitchen...
'fry the tofu for me.'
'cut that vege for me.'
'help me to wash the noodle.'
'help me to look for tomatoes.'
'help me to wrap presents.''
'bring that for me...'
everyone kept calling me!!! which one should i do first???!!! S.O.S...@@

not many ppl helping in the kitchen...ya, as usual i was the only youth there (not many ppl like to go in but just dunno y i feel more comfortable mixing with them). an untie kept coming in n asking me to go out to help her...but others not allow cos not enough ppl in the kitchen...lol...then she came in n called the '2 bday 'gals'' out for celebration...kena 'scolded' again......wakaka...

was damn busy...but i enjoyed...lots of jokes n laughs the whole day...ya of cos...because i'm 'belonged' to the kitchen, i get a chance to eat special food....wakkakkaka


hmm...not many ppl actually...but that is not the main thing...happy to see everyone smiling n some activities for elderly...


'gui ying jie'...wowowww....she is very good at singing...she was entertaining us for the whole morning...

'leong pak'...he had stroke during this CNY...n he is in the nursing home at the moment...since then we ll visit him every sun...chit-chatting with him...i m not going as often but others are...

'yuk yi'...the 'youngest' one in the kitchen...n the most energetic one, u can spot her in most of the pics...=P...this is her great-grand

'ho tai'...the 'boss' of the kitchen...she has a very bad temper...but she was in a very good mood today...i said i wasn't feeling well n she made cocacola with lemon for me...surprisingly...everyone was so surprised too...

all the 'sou seng gong' 'sou seng lui'...hee...

master...jus a random one...it was on shifu's seat when i first get in...ya, i went to shifu's hse again...heee

i think i truly got sick...i feel a bit 'hot'...cannot!!! more activities coming...
越来越不舍得...

power of blogging

i like to blog again...

feel so good every time after writing something here...
especially, when i was a bit down or 'messy'...

this time is not about my activity anymore...
more about myself...

feel like writing diary...

when i was in my high school, my school wanted us to write sth to our form teacher every week or at least every month...
it could be anything...it's liked a dairy or weekly dairy
i used to hate writing...cos i dunno what to write...
i ended up never writing anything in my last few years in high school...
now, i feel like letting my form teacher to 'mark'
if she saw my 'diary', think she ll refer me to the counselor, i would call them 'counselling teachers'...