insomia

i couldn't sleep!

not cos of the tiramisu (thanks for hooisoo giving me so much coffee for that cake) that i have eaten just now. nth to do with it...we were having an old topic again, talking about future, the year after 2010, the life in Adelaide versus Malaysia. talking with friend about the future career after that, making me more worried and lost...

symptoms exacerbated by the career management skills lecture. was damn stress when Nina Tabor talking about it in the class...

haihzz...
thought i would have made up my mind after AP400 but still cant make up my mind...do I able to get the job where i want to? will i get a good pharmacist(s) to work with? is it worth to do so? worth if i want to go back? if i stay on, how about my family? same questions keep coming to my mind on n off...

my brother is going to marry in Feb next year. when i heard the date they have set, i dun really feel that happy like my friends who heard their sis or bro marriage. i start to worry, very uncertain. ya, i know things won't have changed a lot cos she's actually staying with us. 'koko wanna marry.' the only thing in my mind...think i have been in a 'stage' for too long, it's time for me to proceed to another stage...'wah, koko has grown up! me?!' can't accept that maybe...

it is quite hot but i feel cold...

ya...i m blogging at 3.50am.

ya...just get back....
ya...me? so busy again...keep going out...

before exam, was busying, then busy studying for final, after exam keeps going out again...a lot of things i have left out...my friends, especially my housemate, not spending much time at home, letting her doing all the housework n cook for me...feel so bad...

Alzheimer

mental health....whenever comes to this topic, i sure think of her...

lots questions in my mind...
'Why?'
'should or shouldn't'

dreaming of her that she had get better, normal which is impossible

not spending enough time with her, can't accept the reality still....

jus having a little sport after tests

volleyball, not very good at it but i like to play

volleyball gang....lots new membersss this year......


2nd day, early in the morning, we went for hiking. It is Morialta Park. there are 2 pathways: early and hard. We took the hard one. yeah~ i made it...


this is the steepest road...so scary n so hard to walk...going up? not a very big problem but we gotta come down from the same path...a bit worried to my knees at actually cos have injured before...piew....coming down safely....


hiking matesss......