nearly had a fight with mum early in the morning cos of grandma...
got scolded by mum cos i din hang the clothes for her....cos i had forgotten...
mum n dad were fighting cos of a small issue...
dad was hitting the cupboard...
never seen him so angry like that in my life...
cold war then...the whole dinner was so....quiet...
me?! ran through the red light...1st time...
again...i wasn't concentrating...
finally, went back to see my bross....
so happening that all r TANS there...
Thursday 26 November 2009
Tuesday 24 November 2009
mum, i want to talk to u
but...u dun have time to listen to me
i can only talk to myself again here
this is the purpose of me having a blog at the very first place anyway
should i call this my emo zone?
why?!
why u enter my life again
why u leaving without saying anything
why?!
*tearing*
i m not ready to tell everyone i m back yet...
*alone*
but...u dun have time to listen to me
i can only talk to myself again here
this is the purpose of me having a blog at the very first place anyway
should i call this my emo zone?
why?!
why u enter my life again
why u leaving without saying anything
why?!
*tearing*
i m not ready to tell everyone i m back yet...
*alone*
Monday 23 November 2009
Sunday 22 November 2009
Friday 20 November 2009
the end of 2009
a year of living life in Adelaide has come to the end
a feeling of leaving without getting the answer
mum, dad, guama, koko, sharone...can't wait to see u guys!
a feeling of leaving without getting the answer
mum, dad, guama, koko, sharone...can't wait to see u guys!
Thursday 19 November 2009
Tuesday 17 November 2009
Thursday 12 November 2009
finally, everything comes to the end...
i m so tired
feel lik going back
miss my family so much
want to go back soon
but........
a bit unwelling to go back
cos
i know....
once i have left this country
once i have gone back
i won't be able to meet some people anymore
some friends that i care of so much
friends that bring a lot got memories
my friends...
'there is always a chance'
but
it is a bit impossible
due to each one's' commitment, time....
it is not that flexible anymore
it is hard to catch up...
a few days left...time to say goodbye...my friends
all the best to u all
i m so tired
feel lik going back
miss my family so much
want to go back soon
but........
a bit unwelling to go back
cos
i know....
once i have left this country
once i have gone back
i won't be able to meet some people anymore
some friends that i care of so much
friends that bring a lot got memories
my friends...
'there is always a chance'
but
it is a bit impossible
due to each one's' commitment, time....
it is not that flexible anymore
it is hard to catch up...
a few days left...time to say goodbye...my friends
all the best to u all
Sunday 1 November 2009
戒文师傅之扞面篇 a treat by the master
hang in the master's house again...this time, he made his own noodle for us...he has just learnt it from other else...he wanted to show off la...heeheh..but..........................
here is the procedure of making the dough
step 1: add flour
step 2: move to a table and mix
step 3: squat and mix in the garden
he had changed 3 places just to mix the flour. =.="
introducing you the methods of mixing
method 1: jumping
method 2: washing
method 3: throwing (paiseh...no picture cos it happened too fast and the dough rolled onto the grass...so...our noodle had natural additives - grass...hahaha)
method 4: poking
then, it's to roll the dough
this is how a monk using a rolling pin. roll the rolling pin into the dough...=.="
no bad...it is very thin actually...
but it is 21 century now...should use noodle making machine la...much more faster and efficient...
bandages....
cooking....
last, eating!!!!
no bad...the noodle was QQ...and shining
no quality control...some were soo big
even though, he is a monk but he is also a youngster too...lots of funny thought...u can make joke on him one...he has changed my view to the monk...
here is the procedure of making the dough
step 1: add flour
step 2: move to a table and mix
step 3: squat and mix in the garden
he had changed 3 places just to mix the flour. =.="
introducing you the methods of mixing
method 1: jumping
method 2: washing
method 3: throwing (paiseh...no picture cos it happened too fast and the dough rolled onto the grass...so...our noodle had natural additives - grass...hahaha)
method 4: poking
then, it's to roll the dough
this is how a monk using a rolling pin. roll the rolling pin into the dough...=.="
no bad...it is very thin actually...
but it is 21 century now...should use noodle making machine la...much more faster and efficient...
bandages....
cooking....
last, eating!!!!
no bad...the noodle was QQ...and shining
no quality control...some were soo big
even though, he is a monk but he is also a youngster too...lots of funny thought...u can make joke on him one...he has changed my view to the monk...
Friday 30 October 2009
glenelg trip - kite flying
finally, i had the chance to fly kite! i remember the first time i flied kite was a few months ago. Jo n I went to Samophore beach. it was march. Now, we went again, to glenelg....
we went there quite late but just nice to the beach cos not so hot...no sunburn this time...n the weather was not so cold too...
seldom see so much cloud in adelaide
we couldn't fly it at first, a bit disappointed but luckily we managed to fix it at last...hohoho...just a little different to the setting of the kite, it couldn't fly. but i felt it was quite amazing when the kite was not fixed properly. it kept making a circle, very nice but it would attack ppl, landed on or hit u...haha...funny...
doggie, doggie, digging digging....
hey poh, stop drinking!
new fashion! jo, u are so up-to-date...
haihz...taulee, u need practice...
oh! my belly...
pose girls...
jumping shots!
aiya...just got jo only...
nice! got me n jo but....hmm...think better focus on the middle 1...
ar~~~jump!! but...hahahha....
i believe i can fly~~~i believe i can touch the sky!!!
wow~~oyster!! jakun...=.="
cannot waste...liam, liam, liam...haha...
poh, can u order sth for youngsters 1? the coffee...so dark lik my calligraphy's ink...
wahh...scary jo, it is just a pizza...no need to be like tat...
peking duck pizza. interested? 1st time seeing so much spring onion in western food. interesting!
next time i can have wanton mee pizza, siu mai pizza or char xiu bao pizza...hahha...can make a lot money since everyone likes sth different, sth new...
we went there quite late but just nice to the beach cos not so hot...no sunburn this time...n the weather was not so cold too...
seldom see so much cloud in adelaide
we couldn't fly it at first, a bit disappointed but luckily we managed to fix it at last...hohoho...just a little different to the setting of the kite, it couldn't fly. but i felt it was quite amazing when the kite was not fixed properly. it kept making a circle, very nice but it would attack ppl, landed on or hit u...haha...funny...
doggie, doggie, digging digging....
hey poh, stop drinking!
new fashion! jo, u are so up-to-date...
haihz...taulee, u need practice...
oh! my belly...
pose girls...
jumping shots!
aiya...just got jo only...
nice! got me n jo but....hmm...think better focus on the middle 1...
ar~~~jump!! but...hahahha....
i believe i can fly~~~i believe i can touch the sky!!!
wow~~oyster!! jakun...=.="
cannot waste...liam, liam, liam...haha...
poh, can u order sth for youngsters 1? the coffee...so dark lik my calligraphy's ink...
wahh...scary jo, it is just a pizza...no need to be like tat...
peking duck pizza. interested? 1st time seeing so much spring onion in western food. interesting!
next time i can have wanton mee pizza, siu mai pizza or char xiu bao pizza...hahha...can make a lot money since everyone likes sth different, sth new...
Monday 26 October 2009
collecting a sample
share an interesting experience of mine with u...
today i went for a medical check-up for the visa thing. they asked me to collect the urine sample. for those who have done this before sure know that we need to pee out a bit before collecting...here it is the problem. in m'sia, we already get used to squat but here...there is no such thing...so i dun care just pee everything into the cup...... ......... ..........
oh shit!!! i have been drinking too much! the cup doesn't big enough to fill it...no choice i gotta hold and continue to pee into the toilet bowl...hmmm...now, i have realised my pelvic floor muscle is not bad. I can control the urge...hahaha....
today i went for a medical check-up for the visa thing. they asked me to collect the urine sample. for those who have done this before sure know that we need to pee out a bit before collecting...here it is the problem. in m'sia, we already get used to squat but here...there is no such thing...so i dun care just pee everything into the cup...... ......... ..........
oh shit!!! i have been drinking too much! the cup doesn't big enough to fill it...no choice i gotta hold and continue to pee into the toilet bowl...hmmm...now, i have realised my pelvic floor muscle is not bad. I can control the urge...hahaha....
Sunday 25 October 2009
A happening day
it was so happening the whole day...
sunday, as usual, i will go to the temple...praying for a charles prince? not really...dun really lik him though. Normally i will just hide myself in the kitchen. Ya, a place where to keep food, a place where to prepare food. A heaven for me?! to eat?! nono?! dun mistaken!!! i m just helping up...tasting the food for them...haha....
master jie wen offered me to practice calligraphy in his house...ya...i do like to write though not very good at it...so...when i got there, a couple came n wanna outing and taking picture. Oh well...we went all the way to Barossa Valley. Ya it is Barossa, the winery. So happening that i have a camera in my bag...haha...
here are some of my shots....
Temple happening...
somebody brought a baby...Her hands r so cute...sososo tiny...i made her holding my finger to hav a camparison...
auntie yok, a lady who is in charged in cookin rice. There was a day she din come n we all nearly forgot to cook rice...
she makes me think of guama, esp when lookin at her hand, full of freckles n blue veins standing out...i used to play with it when i was a kid...heee :P
Mr Chan, the boss in the kitchen and who teaches me how to cook esp deal with large amount of food, using massive utensils. He askes me to cook for my parents when i get back....hmm...the wok at home is too small la..dunno how to use leh...
heading to barrossssaaaaaa....
speed visit...2hrs there n back....wooowww....
think of getting mead...huh?! in front of the master?? haha...he even brought out a chinese idiom - 不醉不散, means cannot leave if not drunk...but contradicted by me with a dharma teaching - 不饮酒, no intoxication....haha...but we din get to, not enough time, we went there quite late and only visited the lavendar farm which is highly recommended by the master.
master jiewen, the photograher of them...he is quite good at it...but...with a pic he took, blocked by his finger...haha...then we went to another winery. When the master get down, 2 dogs suddenly ran towards him, he quickly hopped into the car with the knees kneeling on the seat and closed the door...the way he did was so funny...one of the dogs also jumped towards me, its nose nearly touched my nose...so sudden n so hyper the dog is when seeing us...
master jiewen lost his manner a bit on that day - hopping into the car, chasing and frightening a cat away, din sit properly...haha...a monk who is very different to the story books...haha
i got a nice photo! but jo said it was blocked by a shadow...ya...at the bottom left...nvm...nice try! i have impoved!!! yeah!!!
tea time!!!
thing that he must do every time...hmm...not very good at it...basically i only drink for thirst...n...try to help him to finish the nuts in his house...haha
i saw 2 very cute, tiny cups...
vegetarian steamboat dinner!!!
no meat in steamboat, not that nice. I m omnivore!!!
Thanks for the dinner anyway but i still dunno what their names are...hahaha...as usually never remembered ppl's name...
wah!!! so yellow they all were!!! roar~~~
wow....biggest computer i have ever seen...
just nice for 2nd round! drinking!!! intoxication!!!
after a day of vege, it is time to have something different!!!
our drinks
Jo-vodka n passionfruit, poh-visky on the rock (drink like an old man), me-vodka lime
woolshed on hindley
the place is quite nice actually. i like the design...so antique and unique but not the bartender. So impatient, nearly spoiled my good mood of the whole day...
sunday, as usual, i will go to the temple...praying for a charles prince? not really...dun really lik him though. Normally i will just hide myself in the kitchen. Ya, a place where to keep food, a place where to prepare food. A heaven for me?! to eat?! nono?! dun mistaken!!! i m just helping up...tasting the food for them...haha....
master jie wen offered me to practice calligraphy in his house...ya...i do like to write though not very good at it...so...when i got there, a couple came n wanna outing and taking picture. Oh well...we went all the way to Barossa Valley. Ya it is Barossa, the winery. So happening that i have a camera in my bag...haha...
here are some of my shots....
Temple happening...
auntie yok, a lady who is in charged in cookin rice. There was a day she din come n we all nearly forgot to cook rice...
she makes me think of guama, esp when lookin at her hand, full of freckles n blue veins standing out...i used to play with it when i was a kid...heee :P
Mr Chan, the boss in the kitchen and who teaches me how to cook esp deal with large amount of food, using massive utensils. He askes me to cook for my parents when i get back....hmm...the wok at home is too small la..dunno how to use leh...
heading to barrossssaaaaaa....
speed visit...2hrs there n back....wooowww....
think of getting mead...huh?! in front of the master?? haha...he even brought out a chinese idiom - 不醉不散, means cannot leave if not drunk...but contradicted by me with a dharma teaching - 不饮酒, no intoxication....haha...but we din get to, not enough time, we went there quite late and only visited the lavendar farm which is highly recommended by the master.
master jiewen, the photograher of them...he is quite good at it...but...with a pic he took, blocked by his finger...haha...then we went to another winery. When the master get down, 2 dogs suddenly ran towards him, he quickly hopped into the car with the knees kneeling on the seat and closed the door...the way he did was so funny...one of the dogs also jumped towards me, its nose nearly touched my nose...so sudden n so hyper the dog is when seeing us...
master jiewen lost his manner a bit on that day - hopping into the car, chasing and frightening a cat away, din sit properly...haha...a monk who is very different to the story books...haha
i got a nice photo! but jo said it was blocked by a shadow...ya...at the bottom left...nvm...nice try! i have impoved!!! yeah!!!
tea time!!!
thing that he must do every time...hmm...not very good at it...basically i only drink for thirst...n...try to help him to finish the nuts in his house...haha
i saw 2 very cute, tiny cups...
vegetarian steamboat dinner!!!
no meat in steamboat, not that nice. I m omnivore!!!
Thanks for the dinner anyway but i still dunno what their names are...hahaha...as usually never remembered ppl's name...
wah!!! so yellow they all were!!! roar~~~
wow....biggest computer i have ever seen...
just nice for 2nd round! drinking!!! intoxication!!!
after a day of vege, it is time to have something different!!!
our drinks
Jo-vodka n passionfruit, poh-visky on the rock (drink like an old man), me-vodka lime
woolshed on hindley
the place is quite nice actually. i like the design...so antique and unique but not the bartender. So impatient, nearly spoiled my good mood of the whole day...
Friday 23 October 2009
I always ask myself...
if i din go...
if i din come...
if i stayed around her...
will she deteriorate so fast?
i know it is a chronic disease, it ll not develop in a day...
but yet i still ask myself like that...
if i m able to stay with her, to take care her, or may quarrel with her...
maybe...maybe her symptoms won't occur so fast...
maybe she might still able to take care of herself, cooked for us, did sth that she like, hung around with her friends, talked to the phone...
maybe i have made a wrong decision...
sometimes, i keep blaming myself...
i might be one of the causes...
y should i leave since i wanna go back?
if i din go...
if i din come...
if i stayed around her...
will she deteriorate so fast?
i know it is a chronic disease, it ll not develop in a day...
but yet i still ask myself like that...
if i m able to stay with her, to take care her, or may quarrel with her...
maybe...maybe her symptoms won't occur so fast...
maybe she might still able to take care of herself, cooked for us, did sth that she like, hung around with her friends, talked to the phone...
maybe i have made a wrong decision...
sometimes, i keep blaming myself...
i might be one of the causes...
y should i leave since i wanna go back?
Monday 19 October 2009
Sunday 18 October 2009
I was waken up by a call...i felt very weird...
i wish at this moment...
when i open my eyes, i was in my own bedroom...
when i open my door, i could see my papa, mammy, guama, koko n sharone...
i could see my 2 big black n a white dogs running, chasing around the house...
i wish i can see all this...
i wish i can go out together with my family in a car...
心中有股莫名其妙的感觉由心而上。。。
i wish i could play back to 2 years ago that i was still in m'sia, i had thought to have credit transfer, i din want to leave actually...i m quite regreted that i din take the action...regreted that i din discuss about it with them...
2 years ago...i wish i was in 2 years ago...
i wish at this moment...
when i open my eyes, i was in my own bedroom...
when i open my door, i could see my papa, mammy, guama, koko n sharone...
i could see my 2 big black n a white dogs running, chasing around the house...
i wish i can see all this...
i wish i can go out together with my family in a car...
心中有股莫名其妙的感觉由心而上。。。
i wish i could play back to 2 years ago that i was still in m'sia, i had thought to have credit transfer, i din want to leave actually...i m quite regreted that i din take the action...regreted that i din discuss about it with them...
2 years ago...i wish i was in 2 years ago...
Tuesday 13 October 2009
soup of the day
what's that????
ya i m boiling my sponge n table cloth. I felt very uncomfortable to the sponge when i wanted to wash my dishes. i can even smell sth from the sponge. i can't stand it so i decided to 'cook' my sponge n also the table cloth. jo found it weird n funny and kept laughing at me but it is normal rite? heat...membasmikan kuman...since the gas is free, why dun fully utilise it?!
sponge n table cloth soup...ready to eat? haha...
i feel better with my sponge now... 'taste' better after boiling...=P
Friday 9 October 2009
4th rushi youth camp
i m back!!!
went for a 4D3N camp, hosted by rushi, staying in the temple for 3 night...it was only 14 of us...experience all sort of things....the whole camp was $60. what laysim has broken down for us. the T-shirt is $15, treated $5 for electricity, water and transport, $10 for each day, roughly $3 for each meal...worth for the cost of $60...haha...
1st day...
basically, it's to know each other and station games. quite amazing that they can incoorporate those dharma teaching into the clue. luckily, we had a dharma genius in my group.
2nd day...
basicall, it's all about mental games. humanised chess, interesting that they put western chess and eastern chess together and come out with a chess that we had to be the chessman...calligraphy, debate, tea zen...'black forest' which come out a lot of interesting and funny stories. we were told to follow the rope as we were blind-folded, some ppl stop for a few min when they found a knot with a lot of branches, some even walked around the room and found the same way out as entrance (don't know who's that cos they wanna protect the committee woo...ll try to dig out who's the fellow...hohoho) chris was hold to bang the wall by the person who incharged in that station, laysim, an independent girl,pushed away the person who went to help her as she couldn't find her way out....me??? couldn't bother following the rope, i just walked straight, hoping one rope to the other, as i know the setting of the room (cos been there every sun). n all sort of funny stories when come to a sharing time....
3rd day...
handi-captain ball, some parts of our body were tied to be handicap, disabled, blind...to have a net-ball game. luckily, we wasn't versus the committee as most of them are sport freaks...but still i gotta run here n there...sigh...drama...1st time in my life playing drama...(act lots things here are my 1st time). experience night...we were blind-folded again...me??!! hahaha...into a half dead situation that wenqi said i m lik a laptop when blind-fold me, i would be in a safe mode...dun really share much things with them...we asked to know what's the simple happiness, what's is the basic necessity compared to some valuable but unnecessary materials, our desire...(cert is 1 of the desire, attachment...should i let go???hahaha), then come to war-exp, disaster video...to be honest, act everything we are known cos listening everyday but how to feel it...u might feel sad at the moment when a disaster come, then after that? u'll back to ur own life...sadness doesn't help in anything...
4th day....
photo presentation...we were asked to choose a pic to take about...mine is a chinese word, 'jing'-净。 since i m so noisy, i should learn to be quiet?? nono....my jing here means i wanna peace, a peaceful heart, a peaceful mind, sometimes i get confused, worried of sth but try to get peace, let go of worries, uncertainty...(i was planning to say so but i din present this when i was there). we are so 'real' now, how when study life is fin? get into the real society...ll u still be the same? will you still help others without any benefits?
we pic and asking others to write some comment in the booklet...basically, my comments are all about: noisy, talkative, happy, hyper...
we were divided into 4 group according to Four Noble Truth....
dukka: 苦 (ordinary life brings about suffering)
the committee group, all guys here are sport freaks, included 3 sis...never ever tried to play any sport with them unless u r in the same group with them....
samudaya: 集 （the origin of suffering is attachment)
sound like Salmonella...that i kept calling them salmonella...hahaha...
this is the most serious group, they even planned and wrote down the steps when playing chess
nirodha: 灭 (the cessation of suffering ia attainable)
magga: 道 (there is an eightfold path to the cessation of suffering)
my group!!!! but i kept calling it mangga....hahaha....
we had the least group members with the busiest committees...weakest group...ya we lost in the end but never mind....just to have fun there...
venerable master jie wen...who's a quite in monk...he introduced himself as 戒文 it is different from 接吻 - means kissing....
now i m back to my real life...feel lik goin back to a city now... huh?!adelaide is also considered as a city? i should say back to a bigger kampung from rural...
tell u sth...i've cleared my stock before leaving...basically, i had nth to eat when i m back...n it was a long weekend...i din stock up!!! luckily, i still can survive with my cereal and milo...breakfast, lunch, dinner and snack....ppl having mooncakes on mid-autumn festival...me? cereal n milo...
=.="
went for a 4D3N camp, hosted by rushi, staying in the temple for 3 night...it was only 14 of us...experience all sort of things....the whole camp was $60. what laysim has broken down for us. the T-shirt is $15, treated $5 for electricity, water and transport, $10 for each day, roughly $3 for each meal...worth for the cost of $60...haha...
1st day...
basically, it's to know each other and station games. quite amazing that they can incoorporate those dharma teaching into the clue. luckily, we had a dharma genius in my group.
2nd day...
basicall, it's all about mental games. humanised chess, interesting that they put western chess and eastern chess together and come out with a chess that we had to be the chessman...calligraphy, debate, tea zen...'black forest' which come out a lot of interesting and funny stories. we were told to follow the rope as we were blind-folded, some ppl stop for a few min when they found a knot with a lot of branches, some even walked around the room and found the same way out as entrance (don't know who's that cos they wanna protect the committee woo...ll try to dig out who's the fellow...hohoho) chris was hold to bang the wall by the person who incharged in that station, laysim, an independent girl,pushed away the person who went to help her as she couldn't find her way out....me??? couldn't bother following the rope, i just walked straight, hoping one rope to the other, as i know the setting of the room (cos been there every sun). n all sort of funny stories when come to a sharing time....
3rd day...
handi-captain ball, some parts of our body were tied to be handicap, disabled, blind...to have a net-ball game. luckily, we wasn't versus the committee as most of them are sport freaks...but still i gotta run here n there...sigh...drama...1st time in my life playing drama...(act lots things here are my 1st time). experience night...we were blind-folded again...me??!! hahaha...into a half dead situation that wenqi said i m lik a laptop when blind-fold me, i would be in a safe mode...dun really share much things with them...we asked to know what's the simple happiness, what's is the basic necessity compared to some valuable but unnecessary materials, our desire...(cert is 1 of the desire, attachment...should i let go???hahaha), then come to war-exp, disaster video...to be honest, act everything we are known cos listening everyday but how to feel it...u might feel sad at the moment when a disaster come, then after that? u'll back to ur own life...sadness doesn't help in anything...
4th day....
photo presentation...we were asked to choose a pic to take about...mine is a chinese word, 'jing'-净。 since i m so noisy, i should learn to be quiet?? nono....my jing here means i wanna peace, a peaceful heart, a peaceful mind, sometimes i get confused, worried of sth but try to get peace, let go of worries, uncertainty...(i was planning to say so but i din present this when i was there). we are so 'real' now, how when study life is fin? get into the real society...ll u still be the same? will you still help others without any benefits?
we pic and asking others to write some comment in the booklet...basically, my comments are all about: noisy, talkative, happy, hyper...
we were divided into 4 group according to Four Noble Truth....
dukka: 苦 (ordinary life brings about suffering)
the committee group, all guys here are sport freaks, included 3 sis...never ever tried to play any sport with them unless u r in the same group with them....
samudaya: 集 （the origin of suffering is attachment)
sound like Salmonella...that i kept calling them salmonella...hahaha...
this is the most serious group, they even planned and wrote down the steps when playing chess
nirodha: 灭 (the cessation of suffering ia attainable)
magga: 道 (there is an eightfold path to the cessation of suffering)
my group!!!! but i kept calling it mangga....hahaha....
we had the least group members with the busiest committees...weakest group...ya we lost in the end but never mind....just to have fun there...
venerable master jie wen...who's a quite in monk...he introduced himself as 戒文 it is different from 接吻 - means kissing....
now i m back to my real life...feel lik goin back to a city now... huh?!adelaide is also considered as a city? i should say back to a bigger kampung from rural...
tell u sth...i've cleared my stock before leaving...basically, i had nth to eat when i m back...n it was a long weekend...i din stock up!!! luckily, i still can survive with my cereal and milo...breakfast, lunch, dinner and snack....ppl having mooncakes on mid-autumn festival...me? cereal n milo...
=.="
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